Laline Paul’s ‘The Bees’, Hauntology and Acceptable Types of Lying

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I’m rereading, for the fourth time, Laline Paul’s ‘The Bees’. Its subject, Bees, is one I love revisiting and the writing style is untaxing. It’s a work of anthropomorphic fiction, same genre as ‘Watership Down’ or ‘Duncton Wood’. But, the switch from mammalian to insect protagonist means Paul is less reliant on mysticism for plot than a lot of these books. The alien nature of a hive provides all the drama of the story. Indeed, the only big step away from proper, believable bee science (other than the anthropomorphicism) is the conflation of two subspecies of domestic honeybee.

The book has been a huge success, both critically and commercially. Paul deserves this. But the language used to praise the books has sometimes been worth questioning. I’ve heard the word ‘pastoral’ used, which seems out of place. There are no shepherds. The feel of the book is claustrophobic, sweatily cloistered, with more of the feel of a convent or a space ship than Arcadia. Pastoral has to mean more than ‘it has trees’.

Another word I’ve heard is ‘lyrical’, and again, this book isn’t that. Part of its charm is its directness. It is paced like a commercial thriller, every chapter has a piece of capital P plot. There’s no room in it for meandering play with language. It doesn’t want or need musicality.

But I also hear what the critic is pointing towards. There’s a fullness here, a kind of abundant license taking we might call ‘poetic’. Laline Paul is not, as far as I know, a bee. But when she writes about a worker bee’s experience of the queen’s hormonal control as a type of ecstatic ‘mother love’, I believe her. Or, rather, I find the image so evocative, so suggestive of the genuine mysteriousness of other types of life, that I don’t mind being lied to.

I spend a lot of time thinking about lies and writing. My witchcraft practice is a kind of very pretty lie. My novel has involved a lot of lying about very real events. There are types of truth that don’t fit into the facts.

Until very recently, I used the language of hauntology to explain this. I’d talk about truth in terms of ‘ghostliness’ and Derrida’s ‘infinite deferral’. The ambiguous relationship between representation and truth imagined as a doomed séance, ghosts co-mingling but never touching. Truth as a phantasm that can’t quite be grasped or refused, not living or dead.

And that works, as far as it goes. But it’s started to bore me. It’s very clever, maybe even ‘true’. But it doesn’t sit right. The feeling of the image is too gloomy.

Hauntology rests on the idea of absence, of the endlessly retreating real, just beyond reach. It feeds a sort of nihilism. I agree that selves, words, ideas do not have fixed edges or centres. I agree that things are never self-same to themselves. I agree that truth is slippery. But the denial of identity doesn’t have to be read in terms of emptiness. The great potential in the gaps of language don’t feel like an emptiness to me anymore. It’s not that the words are empty, it’s that the truth is too enormous to live inside them.

This is an old understanding, almost mystic. I’m not being novel here. The Tao is both the formless and its manifestations. God is both Ain Soph at the top of the tree and Malkuth at the bottom. A lot of people, clever navel gazing people, have looked at the world and said emptiness and infinite possibility are the same thing. I’m not wise enough to expand on the work of the sages. But my experience, in this moment, is that truth is not slippery like a ghost. It is slippery like a Turkish wrestler covered in olive oil, and it is big, and I can’t get a handle on it, and the act of grappling means I am frequently thrown to the ground and frequently aroused. I am not scrabbling after ghosts. I am cheerfully adrift in multiplicity.

I’ve reached the end of my language here. Let’s return to facts. Laline Paul is not a bee. She, and all writers, are liars. But it’s not an absence of truth, it’s something else. Something we should have a German word for. Not a white lie — nothing in the text is intended to deceive. Not Terry Pratchett’s ‘lies to children’ — Paul isn’t laying down groundwork for something that I will eventually understand. Paul isn’t offering me a route to actually understanding what it’s like to be a bee. Annaliese Mackintosh, whose genre blending memoir/fiction practice was very helpful in shaping my thoughts here, spoke to me about Werner Herzog’s ‘ecstatic truth’ at a literary festival last year. But this isn’t that either. Paul isn’t reaching for the ‘emotional truth’ of being a bee. This is an act of total projection. It is totally honest about its falsity.

What is the word? Fable, perhaps?  But even that feels too pedagogical. Too clearly moral. I need a word that means ‘a fiction that points to the mysterious unknowable in’. A koan? A lie-that-enlarges?

I don’t know. But I know when I read her book, and I go out into the garden, the blank spot of a bee’s mind is made enormous to me. A mystery that doesn’t tell me anything about a bee, but which makes me aware of all I don’t know. She is telling me a lie, but it is forcing me to look at a truth. I feel my limits, and I push against them.

I genuinely don’t know what a bee would make of that.

I'm What's Haunting The Landscape

There’s a lot of talk about haunted landscapes. It seems like every other tutor in my university department is writing about ghostliness. I’ve almost finished a novel on the same. There’s something in it which appeals, something about the idea of ‘trace’. It suggests that things matter. It suggests things last.

But I am sat in the town I grew up in, and all the ghosts are gone. At 16, Tamworth seemed somehow both vast and restrictive. Restrictive, because we couldn’t get out except once a month to shop in Birmingham, but vast because all the drama of my life happened there. I remember summers where the red bricks of the pedestrian area seemed to sweat. I remember walking in groups with my fellow teenage goths. Black lips, unwashed fishnet vests, strong smell of patchouli to cover the smell of weed we weren’t actually cool enough to have. It seemed so big, so storied.

Now, travelling through on my way to somewhere else, it seems so small. As if someone made a scale replica of the real Tamworth of my memory. But all the shops are wrong. I’m drinking a soy latte in the Costa that used to be the McDonalds were I used to flirt awkwardly with straight boys who didn’t understand. In the roof above me, in what is probably now a storage area or an office, there was a Ronald McDonald play area which, as a younger child, I had really wanted to have a birthday party in. I remember, but I can’t seem to tie the memory to the place. As if it’s me that is the ghost, fruitlessly trying to force a haunting.

I wonder how much of it is to do with adrenaline. I used to be so afraid here. I used to prowl the streets prey-like, trying to avoid the groups who attacked me. Tamworth was a warren of escape routes. This route to the castle. That route to the new age shop where we awkwardly buy tarot cards. This way the graveyard for kissing. That way my Nan’s sheltered accommodation.

Now I don’t care, and I can walk the entire centre in less than 20 minutes. The paths don’t matter. All roads lead to Poundland.

Last week I was in London. By necessity, I had to pass sites of trauma. Here’s where Jason told me he just wanted to be friends. Here’s where I pushed him over in the underground. Here’s where Thom and Tom and Jared and Ethan and Peter told me they didn’t love me, as if some weird eddy of London pulls break-ups to the South Bank. Here and here and here I was sexually assaulted. Places I’ve blacked out drunk. Places where I’ve had coffee and been too much of a coward to say I wish it was a date. Jobs I’ve hated. The lonely dull streets of Soho where nothing seems to happen except longing.

It’s strange to say it, but it doesn’t hurt anymore. Maybe it’s writing the book. Maybe it’s just time. Or maybe it’s that my life has hope in it now. Now that somewhere else exists, now I have somewhere to go, London feels small like Tamworth does. It’s like I’ve stepped into a museum exhibit, artefacts under glass and untouchable. The feelings and memories don’t feel connected to these scraps of asphalt and generic shopping centres. What ghosts there are, small and shy and fading, I brought with me.